I’ve been implementing a brand new creative project. Lots of energy and enthusiasm being spent. Lots of productive time making something totally new. Bouncing my ideas away from others in the coaching group. But each time I attempt a fresh journey of producing, I find myself becoming angry.
How does this happen? What exactly is this anger about? What is happening?
My mentor and i also were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It seems like the tender spots are what your location is angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Finding that it is difficult to maintain a job choosing anger all over, I wanted to find a way to be effective “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane along with a bit mindless. This creative energy releases my mind to ensure that I can “trick” my anger into thinking I’m busy along with other things.
When I make this happen I call it “spinning”. Spinning jogs my memory in the stories from the spinning wheel where I’m able to outside, hurry up creating (such as the wool about the wheel). This opens the door to metaphor and takes me far from my should “control” a task.
When I began drawing this picture… of the spinning wheel… I thought of “turning straw to gold”. I became reminded again with the story of Rumpelstilskin. You know, usually the one… the millers daughter, the dad says “she can spin straw into gold” towards the king… and also the king wants to see this… if she cannot, she’ll be put to death… ? Then, an odd little man appears. He tells her they can spin straw into gold… however it will be at a price to her.
I found the storyplot and focus several versions of it. It resonated beside me. However, when i usually do, Cleaning it once a to logically “organize” the storyplot. This caused me being more frustrated, because i has not been seeing or feeling what this story was looking to inform me.
So I went back to my “dream capture” work. I just read the storyplot as though it were a goal I had created had. Then, Used to the subsequent:
Listed out all of the characters
Listed out your “key words” within the story that resonated beside me
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat if you ask me within my current situation
Then… I began to get noticable just what the story was telling me. Here’s what I ran across
The little man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
The king=accountability
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While each of these “characters” has an independent role, Each of the characters create one “psyche” for me. Just about everyone has of such qualities within us.
To make something, it requires much energy… and much rest can also be needed. We’ve got to give of ourselves and request for help.
In the end, a child comes into the world and we’ll not stop. It can be our “creation” and we’re surprised about might know about have made. Also, what can be done to obtain there.
What did I learn?
Until this story resonates beside me. Also, this story will repeat itself repeatedly because i continue to create, rest, other people and finish an undertaking. Although Rumpelstilskin stomps himself in to the ground at the end of the storyplot, that little man is going to be back… and then time, Let me know his name.
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